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| Yesterday I was just going to write "WTF?" in here.
Now, the biggest wtf moment I have ever endured in my life has passed.
It's resolved.
I am relieved.
Finally.
Thank you.  | | |
| I figured it was time for another update...this was stolen from Danae. I'm making up my own version of the rules (meaning I don't put songs on shuffle, I just choose what sounds good) But yeah, here it is...
01) How does the world see you?
So What Does It All Mean?//A Walk to Remember Soundtrack
02) Will I have a happy life?
Happy is a Yuppie Word//Switchfoot
03) What do my friends think of me?
Sweetness//Jimmy Eat World
04) Do people secretly lust after me?
Razzle Dazzle//Chicago Soundtrack
05) How can I make myself happy?
I'm Free//Footloose Soundtrack
06) What should I do with my life?
Love is the Movement//Switchfoot
07) Will I ever have children?
College Kids//Relient K
08) What is some good advice for me?
Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying//Fall Out Boy
09) How Will I Be Remembered?
We'll Never Know//Lifehouse
10) What's my signature dancing song?
Dancin' in the Moonlight//Toploader
11) What's my current theme song?
Every Little Thing//Hawk Nelson
12) What do others think is my current theme song?
The Middle//Jimmy Eat World
13) What type of men do I like?
You Found Me//Kelly Clarkson
14) What's my love life like?
The One I'm Waiting For//Relient K
The end. | | |
| I realized tonight how frickin' screwed up people can be in how they treat eachother. Alright, I knew to some extent before. But tonight was a whole new ball park. I'm talking horrible, awful, terrible things. What the heck? This is supposed to be fun. This is supposed to be one of the best experiences of high school. This is supposed to be good.
It's not. At least not right now.
I now know, even more than before, how much I love my friends. And how much I am missing them. | | |
| I hate homework. 
It should die. 
I have so much. 
I want to cry. 
That's my latest poem. (Renee knows it rather well by now.--Hi Renee!) Feel free to steal it, just give credit to me. I know it's a mutual feeling between me and my fellow school-goers. Blah.
Now back to writing this awfully long and in depth research paper that should be burned... | | |
| I've been doing some deep thinking lately. I want to know why I am the way I am. I want to know why I act a certain way. I want to know why I feel a certain way. I want to know why I do things. I just mainly want to know the big "why" in my life. I think I had a moment of clarity as I was watching my two-year-olds. I was holding a little girl in my arms. She leaned her head on my shoulder. And all of a sudden, all of these thoughts came to my mind. I may have figured out so many "why's" in such a short amount of time. It was a little overwhelming. And I think I may have zoned out for a minute. But I brought myself back to reality so I could watch my two's. But still, when you have a moment of clarity, it's awesome. Sure, some of the things I was thinking about were crappy. But just to have that moment where it's like, "Whoa...ohhh...that's why...whoa..." it is so cool. I was amazed. I don't think I have it all figured out. And I don't think I have it figured out in the depth it can be thought of in. But I got through a lot that night. And that one moment has had me thinking the entire weekend. And slowly, I'm starting to realize more of the "why's" in my life. It is really cool. Now if only I knew what to do with the knowledge. I have the why. Now I need the what-to-do. Now that part may take a little while. But for now, I am content with the why's and I'll continue to work on the what-to-do's. | | |
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